Hello Blog readers!!!
Sorry its been a bit of a long time since my last blog, and since then quite a lot has happened, I've had a summer of fun (playing cricket, laughing around, getting stuck in with the cafe and generally enjoying life) before coming back to uni! (Praise God passed my 2 modules and so on to final year!)
So Uni started off well, the freshers events I was very busy with, car parking and freshers BBQs went very well thanks to a little help from a friendly gammer! (thanks Mike brown!) and CU had started well, I'd also got what I thought was a great topic for my dissertation
However a few weeks in, things started piling up on top of me, my dissertation hit a brick wall with ethics, and a number of personal issues from people around me started dragging me down, and rather than pulling them up and through things, I'd let my self get dragged down and getting to a dark place, finally snapping when I'd heard that my Grandma Had died (although this had been coming for the last few years since her stroke, it was still a surprise), and things kind of went bad from there
However this in some ways were what was needed, a weekend away from home to revitalise and refresh things, yes it was a upsetting weekend but everyone was incredibly supportive and so this was what I needed to get a foothold back to a stable level and work on things from their
Getting back to normal has taken the rest of term but its taught me a lot of lessons
First of all God is there in everything, i've had so many people praying for me so if that you thank you for that, and to have people speaking truth in to your life regardless of weather they know what's going on or not has been a great help. This is summed up in a song realised by a friend of mine (which I helped write the lyrics to)https://soundcloud.com/dave-lamm/all-these-things
It speaks about God being there and providing what we need when the world is against us and we have fallen short, and looking back at it, having the lyrics to the song in the back of my head was a big help during the recovery- so its good to see it finally realised!)
Secondly, that there are people to rely on that I can trust, willing to put and arm round me and confort me, put up with me when I screw up, or just showing me there is a problem! so if your one of thoes people thanks again
So thats the past- what about the future
First of all mission week is coming up and I'm hoping to be involved with it somewhere (depending on how uni work plans out) so this should be a great chance to get re-involved with CU, I've missed being involved the last few months, especialy on getting to know the freshers
Secondly, plowing on with my dissertation, january starts the start of the questionair season so I'll probibly sending them out far and wide to get the numbers needed, before I can get on to the fun (in my view) of analysis and conclusions so that needs doing
thirdly I (hopefully) Graduate this year, which is a scary thing- after 18 years of education, this could be my last year before entering the 'real world' so could be intresting in terms of looking for jobs and stuff- my plan is currently to stay in huddersfield, but a lot could change depening on the job situation
so thats my blog, hopefully it won't be to long the next one!
so on that bombshow
danny-d-b signing out!
The Christian Foodie
Wednesday, 2 January 2013
Thursday, 7 June 2012
1 year 2 months on since my first blog (there or there abouts)
Hi people
Just over a year ago I started writing blogs, partly as something to fill my time, partly as an output for my emotions and feelings, and partly as a way of giving me people more opportunities to comment on what I have to say!
So where was I a year ago:- Well I was going through a bit of a rough time, my uni course hadn't gone to plan, CU was being difficult to deal with and small group leadership was being a drain and a hassle rather than an enjoyment and a privilege. Not that I'm blaming anyone for this but I'd become negative and drawn out, and part of me wanted to give up there and then (especially when I scraped through in terms of surviving uni but having to carry on part time instead)
However after many weeks of trying to sort uni out (trying to sort out what was going on was confusing) I decided that this was the year to try and get involved more in my church, as with my smaller time constraints on uni (I was only doing 3-4 hours a week) and stuff like that. This seemed to match up with God's plan as well cos as soon as I'd offered my services to church, doors to 'big scary opportunities' opened up. This included volunteering for the office team, joining the street work team, and getting involved with a life group
First I'd decided on a whim to see if there was any odd jobs I could do around the church, thinking I'd just be put on the odd thing here and there. However this was slightly blown out of the water when I was 'enlisted' on to the office volunteers 'rota' once a week helping out on a Thursday. Now people who know me well will have thought, 'hang on this is a dyslexic guy who hates being sat around doing nothing, and doesn't really like answering phones' well for some reason it just stuck, and before I knew it I was pretty much being left to my own devices to man the office alone, which was very scary but also was given a lot of jobs to be kept busy with, weather it was sorting out the church database! (yes I've got my own log in for it) given master keys to the building! (Insert evil grin!) and answering the phone and generally being the public face of Jubilee centre. Thinking back this was something I probably would of ran away from in the past, but through God's strength, some great mentors in the form of Hannah Evans, Chris Haygarth and Sara Cosgrove and some general 'I hope you know what you’re doing God, cos I've not got a clue!' I've managed to haul my way though the year, and for some strange reason considing sighing up next year! thought this I'd also been put on the Sunday night live core team, moving tables and chairs around Costa, before being one of the public leason, and then moving tables and chairs back
Secondly I'd started attending prayer meetings and other midweek church meetings, which in themselves where very helpful this year, however at the first one I attended, it was announced that we were looking to do a street party to commemorate the Queens jubilee. For some strange reason I'd signed up to help before even thinking about it and before I knew it I was sat in a room with a load of high up people from both community and the police force, council and bus company talking about road closures and licensing, and I'm sat there thinking 'this is a bit over my head isn't it!'
However 8 months on the party went down a huge success, with us closing the road, covering a 0.2 mile section with tables and staging having the media both locally and nationally potentially showing up and having my name in print in a paper! all very scary stuff!
Thirdly I'd also decided to join the street work team, going out on to the streets of Huddersfield giving out hot drinks, and generally serving the people on the streets of Huddersfield. From this I've gained a lot of experiences in evangelism, especially learning how important it is to listen to what the other person is saying. So many times direct contact evangelism I used to shudder at the thought of, as I'm more used to reacting to someone, rather than trying to dictate the flow of the conversation. However on the streets, standing and listening I discovered was as needed talking, and while we might not have seen conversions on the streets, people were willing to strike up conversations with us, and talk about a whole host of things, from God, to Komodo Dragons. This kind of relationship building had sometimes been missing from CU evangelism, and I Decided at the time to 'put myself forward' for a position on committee, with the possibility to change things as I saw them.
However committee had seen my commitment to the church as well, and in their wisdom desired to allow me to focus my energies on that rather than on CU stuff, freeing me up to get more involved with in the Church, by not putting me on committee, or continuing on my 3rd 'term' as a small group leader. Although this a was a disappointment in some aspects, 1 door closing was showing me the other door was the one to chose, and so I continued on my additional church activities
Another 'sub door' that had opened to me during this year, was the switch from open homes, which in previous years I'd allowed to pass me by, to life groups, consistent groups of people which got together to share how God was working in their lives and grow as a group. This was part of this year that I grew to love very quickly as it was what I'd loved about small groups in the past, people getting together and being free to share and build each other up. through this I Got something out of the group as well as purely contributing to it, something which small groups had become slightly in the previous months, I now left each group feeling challenged and wanting more of what God had for me, rather than just leaving and trying to work out if I'd got anything out of it.
First I'd decided on a whim to see if there was any odd jobs I could do around the church, thinking I'd just be put on the odd thing here and there. However this was slightly blown out of the water when I was 'enlisted' on to the office volunteers 'rota' once a week helping out on a Thursday. Now people who know me well will have thought, 'hang on this is a dyslexic guy who hates being sat around doing nothing, and doesn't really like answering phones' well for some reason it just stuck, and before I knew it I was pretty much being left to my own devices to man the office alone, which was very scary but also was given a lot of jobs to be kept busy with, weather it was sorting out the church database! (yes I've got my own log in for it) given master keys to the building! (Insert evil grin!) and answering the phone and generally being the public face of Jubilee centre. Thinking back this was something I probably would of ran away from in the past, but through God's strength, some great mentors in the form of Hannah Evans, Chris Haygarth and Sara Cosgrove and some general 'I hope you know what you’re doing God, cos I've not got a clue!' I've managed to haul my way though the year, and for some strange reason considing sighing up next year! thought this I'd also been put on the Sunday night live core team, moving tables and chairs around Costa, before being one of the public leason, and then moving tables and chairs back
Secondly I'd started attending prayer meetings and other midweek church meetings, which in themselves where very helpful this year, however at the first one I attended, it was announced that we were looking to do a street party to commemorate the Queens jubilee. For some strange reason I'd signed up to help before even thinking about it and before I knew it I was sat in a room with a load of high up people from both community and the police force, council and bus company talking about road closures and licensing, and I'm sat there thinking 'this is a bit over my head isn't it!'
However 8 months on the party went down a huge success, with us closing the road, covering a 0.2 mile section with tables and staging having the media both locally and nationally potentially showing up and having my name in print in a paper! all very scary stuff!
Thirdly I'd also decided to join the street work team, going out on to the streets of Huddersfield giving out hot drinks, and generally serving the people on the streets of Huddersfield. From this I've gained a lot of experiences in evangelism, especially learning how important it is to listen to what the other person is saying. So many times direct contact evangelism I used to shudder at the thought of, as I'm more used to reacting to someone, rather than trying to dictate the flow of the conversation. However on the streets, standing and listening I discovered was as needed talking, and while we might not have seen conversions on the streets, people were willing to strike up conversations with us, and talk about a whole host of things, from God, to Komodo Dragons. This kind of relationship building had sometimes been missing from CU evangelism, and I Decided at the time to 'put myself forward' for a position on committee, with the possibility to change things as I saw them.
However committee had seen my commitment to the church as well, and in their wisdom desired to allow me to focus my energies on that rather than on CU stuff, freeing me up to get more involved with in the Church, by not putting me on committee, or continuing on my 3rd 'term' as a small group leader. Although this a was a disappointment in some aspects, 1 door closing was showing me the other door was the one to chose, and so I continued on my additional church activities
Another 'sub door' that had opened to me during this year, was the switch from open homes, which in previous years I'd allowed to pass me by, to life groups, consistent groups of people which got together to share how God was working in their lives and grow as a group. This was part of this year that I grew to love very quickly as it was what I'd loved about small groups in the past, people getting together and being free to share and build each other up. through this I Got something out of the group as well as purely contributing to it, something which small groups had become slightly in the previous months, I now left each group feeling challenged and wanting more of what God had for me, rather than just leaving and trying to work out if I'd got anything out of it.
So what have I got out of this year? Well the confidence to try new things, before this year, I'd stuck to what I knew to some degree, both in church life, with my exploration in to spiritual gifts controlled at my pace, and in CU life, becoming involved in other areas outside small group leadership including event planning (the joys of playing pacman and being able to call it research!) a realisation that just because people maybe older and have leadership roles within the church doesn't mean they don't have time to give to students if we are prepared to be dedicated to the time they give us. Lastly, don't put boundaries on your abilities without giving God a chance to prove otherwise, I've always said office work and direct evandalism are two things I'd never do, and yet I've done both through God's strength this year
So what about the future, I'm still in the position of being reliant on passing both my modules in a few weeks to get on to final year!, However if I do so I've realised that much church life is stuff I'm going to continue with, especially working in the office and life groups. However I've decided to give up street work, at least interims of every week, though I may occupationally go back to catch up with the people. As far as CU is concerned I'm entering my final stages of university life, and so may not be able to offer the same amount of time as I once did. However I hope I can use my experiences and gifts to be an example to the more active members and help out where I can (even if it’s only doing words every couple of weeks and being someone's prayer buddy, or even just being around and being a scary final year to all the freshers! or how ever else God wants to use me.) it seems strange that around 7 years ago life didn't seem worth living, and now I've got more opportunities than I can use, I just hope God gives me the wisdom to work out which opportunities to take
So on that bombshow, Good night and God bless
Danny-d-b
The Christian Foodie
So what about the future, I'm still in the position of being reliant on passing both my modules in a few weeks to get on to final year!, However if I do so I've realised that much church life is stuff I'm going to continue with, especially working in the office and life groups. However I've decided to give up street work, at least interims of every week, though I may occupationally go back to catch up with the people. As far as CU is concerned I'm entering my final stages of university life, and so may not be able to offer the same amount of time as I once did. However I hope I can use my experiences and gifts to be an example to the more active members and help out where I can (even if it’s only doing words every couple of weeks and being someone's prayer buddy, or even just being around and being a scary final year to all the freshers! or how ever else God wants to use me.) it seems strange that around 7 years ago life didn't seem worth living, and now I've got more opportunities than I can use, I just hope God gives me the wisdom to work out which opportunities to take
So on that bombshow, Good night and God bless
Danny-d-b
The Christian Foodie
Wednesday, 2 May 2012
A love so high, so wide, so deep
hi blog readers! (yes that's all of you!)
sorry if your expecting a blog on giants, I did have that further along the pipeline than this, but after tonight, that has been put back thanks to tonight
2 weeks ago Ian was talking about the great commandments (love your God, and love your neighbor as your self- sounds like a blog I once wrote!) and the main point of his message was that to love others, we need to love ourselves, and to love ourselves, we need to allow ourselves to be loved by God. Now this might sound easy, but how often do we just assume we allow God to love us, or just presume he loves us. We can spend so much time 'being a christian' loving others, doing good deeds, and making everything about us (even if it is admitting our faults/asking for repentance from sins) we don't have time to be loved by God, so often we are to busy trying to love him.
now I'm not saying we should be making the relationship about us, or try to be something we are not, but with out allowing God's love to fill us, we can become dry. Because agape love (God's love for his people, and the love which is meant in the 2 great commandments) can only be giving out of an over flow, because its a love that doesn't make sense, nothing else in the world gives something for nothing, but not only does agape give something for nothing, it gives the most presious thing in exisitance (eternal life) for something that destroys relationships (sin) and that is not something we can just produce with out it filling us first, we can only agape love because he first agape loved us (1 john 4:9) we love others out of an over flow of God's love for us!
1 week ago Chris haygarth spoke on living with an open heart, and prophetic for that morning was in 3 parts, that God's love was higher than a mountain, wider than the universe and Deeper than the sea, That God's love was a rock beneath our feet, and also a mighty river (so mighty it was a flood plain) for us to dance in!
God's love is something for all occasions, its not something that only applies some of the time, its a river to dance in when we are happy, a rock beneath us for when we feel we are losing our footing or need solid ground to 'retreat' to but also a something that empowers us to climb any mountain, cross any universes and get to the bottom of any sea!
But one of the points was that the heart is something that as a muscle needs to be active in order to grow, and open up, cos an open heart allows us both to accept God's love but also pour that out to others, and the more it grows and opens up the more of God' love we can aspect
But how do we spiritualy activate our heart, how do we allow God in to our lives
well that something we covered at life groups earlier tonight (I say that its not 00:34!) God's love is so high, so wide, so deep we can't escape it, once we are in it we can't get out of it! its like a swimming pool that every time you try to get to the surface or the edge, it moves equal far away from you, ergo your never going to get out of it.
Well that is unless we chose to put up walls and enclose ourselves- God still loves us but we put sin between us and his love, and build barriers between them, God is still there on the outside waiting for us to to realize we have sinned and tear down the walls, but we are hiding away and blocking out the ourselves the thing that allows us to Grow most effectively.
So how do we practicaly activate our hearts
Spend time with God- this isn't just being a christian machine gun- barking out a load of requests and occasionally some praise to God before leaving before we give him chance to respond either through meditation or the bible but this is giving up time to both 'talk' and to listen and enjoy the relationship with God
Spend time with God's people- like I have been working all day for the last 2 days with out much time for anyone's else (other than the occasional FB chat) and I realy felt that I needed some time with God's people tonight, just as the text came through telling me life groups was on. I mean I could of easily said no and carried on working, but instead went and it was probably one of the best life groups I've been able to attend in terms of what I got out of it
Be honnest about where you are with people- I mean I've relised that I've come accross in a way in the past that isn't: a, who God made me to be and b, actually where I am, and rather than dealing with the issues I have, I hide them away and try to cover them up, rather than acccepting I'm a loved, cherished and paid up son of God
so to sum up, we are Free men, Free from sin, Free from rejection, Free from loneliness, free from depression, we are only 'slaves' to them if we let them take over rather than relsising that God loves us. If we concentcentrate on God's love, realize that it is freeing, empowering and secure and relising that we are ment to be in a loving family with the rest of the church then we can fight all the schemes of the evil one, which is something I need to remember myself as much, if not more than anyone else
Be Free, Be Loved, Be Powerfull
and on that bombshow
goodnight
sorry if your expecting a blog on giants, I did have that further along the pipeline than this, but after tonight, that has been put back thanks to tonight
Last the few Sundays at church (community church, Huddersfield) there has been a lot of words brought about God's love, and how important it is. (you can listen to them here the two I'm refrancing are Chris Haygarth - Live With A Wide Open Heart and Ian Rossol - The Three Journeys though I'd also suggest listing to Nathan Caughey - He absolutely well and truly, significantly, scientifically, entirely, decidedly, conclusively, indisputably, really clearly loves us.)
2 weeks ago Ian was talking about the great commandments (love your God, and love your neighbor as your self- sounds like a blog I once wrote!) and the main point of his message was that to love others, we need to love ourselves, and to love ourselves, we need to allow ourselves to be loved by God. Now this might sound easy, but how often do we just assume we allow God to love us, or just presume he loves us. We can spend so much time 'being a christian' loving others, doing good deeds, and making everything about us (even if it is admitting our faults/asking for repentance from sins) we don't have time to be loved by God, so often we are to busy trying to love him.
now I'm not saying we should be making the relationship about us, or try to be something we are not, but with out allowing God's love to fill us, we can become dry. Because agape love (God's love for his people, and the love which is meant in the 2 great commandments) can only be giving out of an over flow, because its a love that doesn't make sense, nothing else in the world gives something for nothing, but not only does agape give something for nothing, it gives the most presious thing in exisitance (eternal life) for something that destroys relationships (sin) and that is not something we can just produce with out it filling us first, we can only agape love because he first agape loved us (1 john 4:9) we love others out of an over flow of God's love for us!
1 week ago Chris haygarth spoke on living with an open heart, and prophetic for that morning was in 3 parts, that God's love was higher than a mountain, wider than the universe and Deeper than the sea, That God's love was a rock beneath our feet, and also a mighty river (so mighty it was a flood plain) for us to dance in!
God's love is something for all occasions, its not something that only applies some of the time, its a river to dance in when we are happy, a rock beneath us for when we feel we are losing our footing or need solid ground to 'retreat' to but also a something that empowers us to climb any mountain, cross any universes and get to the bottom of any sea!
But one of the points was that the heart is something that as a muscle needs to be active in order to grow, and open up, cos an open heart allows us both to accept God's love but also pour that out to others, and the more it grows and opens up the more of God' love we can aspect
But how do we spiritualy activate our heart, how do we allow God in to our lives
well that something we covered at life groups earlier tonight (I say that its not 00:34!) God's love is so high, so wide, so deep we can't escape it, once we are in it we can't get out of it! its like a swimming pool that every time you try to get to the surface or the edge, it moves equal far away from you, ergo your never going to get out of it.
Well that is unless we chose to put up walls and enclose ourselves- God still loves us but we put sin between us and his love, and build barriers between them, God is still there on the outside waiting for us to to realize we have sinned and tear down the walls, but we are hiding away and blocking out the ourselves the thing that allows us to Grow most effectively.
So how do we practicaly activate our hearts
Spend time with God- this isn't just being a christian machine gun- barking out a load of requests and occasionally some praise to God before leaving before we give him chance to respond either through meditation or the bible but this is giving up time to both 'talk' and to listen and enjoy the relationship with God
Spend time with God's people- like I have been working all day for the last 2 days with out much time for anyone's else (other than the occasional FB chat) and I realy felt that I needed some time with God's people tonight, just as the text came through telling me life groups was on. I mean I could of easily said no and carried on working, but instead went and it was probably one of the best life groups I've been able to attend in terms of what I got out of it
Be honnest about where you are with people- I mean I've relised that I've come accross in a way in the past that isn't: a, who God made me to be and b, actually where I am, and rather than dealing with the issues I have, I hide them away and try to cover them up, rather than acccepting I'm a loved, cherished and paid up son of God
so to sum up, we are Free men, Free from sin, Free from rejection, Free from loneliness, free from depression, we are only 'slaves' to them if we let them take over rather than relsising that God loves us. If we concentcentrate on God's love, realize that it is freeing, empowering and secure and relising that we are ment to be in a loving family with the rest of the church then we can fight all the schemes of the evil one, which is something I need to remember myself as much, if not more than anyone else
Be Free, Be Loved, Be Powerfull
and on that bombshow
goodnight
Sunday, 15 January 2012
redefining, redescovering, reloving
Yo all- a long time since I wrote a blog so feels like a lot to update you lot on!
considering this year is my part time year I've not had the time, or rather the motivation for blogging- for the last few months I've thrown my self in to Church and CU stuff. but I've gone to far.
For the last couple of months its been realy hard to motivate my self to do most things, especially uni work, even getting out of bed some days had been like running a marathon, everyday I felt like I had to re-prove how usefull I was to everyone, Prove I was good enough to have around.
But thats when the problems happen- what happens when someone is just as good as something you at something, or even better, well its been soul sapping, even for something such as a love a small group leading had become a chore, because rather than being confidant in my abilities and gifting, I felt I had to compeat with Katie rather than work with her, and when it seemed that I had no way of 'beating her' there was no reason to compete anymore, no reason to use the gifting God gave to me, no reason for me to even be here. and so when i sat there getting in depressed how I'm no good at anything, Katie contacts me with a funny one liner and I give her a Dan Brown special of how I'm the worst people ever to existed, defiinatly not what she was expecting
However God has realy worked the back end of this week, I've been lucky enough to spend time talking and enjoying the company of some realy good friends.
First of all Jamie M who dispight the fact he was up at 7am the next morning for a meeting sat with me till about 1am chatting about my life up untill then, and for the first time in a long time I allowed someone to take an interest in who I am, rather putting up barriers by forcing someone to talk about them, or making shallow talk about what I'm up to (and trying to prove how useful I am) we talked a lot about my past, and it felt like I was opening a lot of doors that I'd forced to stay shut for a long time. After leaving jamie's it took me between an hour and a half and 2 hours to get from ashenhurst to marsh and I was crying most of the way home, because for the first time in a long time I'd allowed someone to get to me, and although it was one of the most 'painful' things I've been through in the last few months, it was also one of the most needed, and God taught me a lot of stuff over that time, although I was a experiences small group leader, a willing volunteer and insperation, that was just qualtites of who I was, and I'd let it define me rather than allowing my self to just be loved by people, I'd relised I was trying to prove to people it was worth loving me
I then had a great day meeting up with Katie, who when I'd orginaly broken down at her over FB, then had broken down to her, we had agreed to meet up and chat. However this is where God (and katie) surprised me. I was expecting to be allowed to take up an hour of her time, then excusees would be made and I'd spend another evening home alone, but instead spent the day hanging out with her, laughing, joking and enjoying some very good music, by Josh and Bob before sitting in a pub and just hanging out!
the following morning there was a student men's breakfast at community and it was great to spend time and hang out with some realy inspireing people (Bob, Matt H, Matt S and Mark) eating lots of pig and drinking lots of tea! Great morning all round!
then last night Jolita invited me round for tea and one of the cheesiest predictable christian films I've seen, which had us both in sticker at times (mostly at how 'black' the church was) and it was a just a realy good time of chilling out, letting my hair down (not that I have much of it) and allowing me to be me, not me the Councillor, or me the inspirational mad man, or anything else of me trying to prove myself to myself, to others or to God, but me being a son of God, his prized creation, a work of art, and someone who is loved and saved by grace, and not how useful I am to people
considering this year is my part time year I've not had the time, or rather the motivation for blogging- for the last few months I've thrown my self in to Church and CU stuff. but I've gone to far.
For the last couple of months its been realy hard to motivate my self to do most things, especially uni work, even getting out of bed some days had been like running a marathon, everyday I felt like I had to re-prove how usefull I was to everyone, Prove I was good enough to have around.
But thats when the problems happen- what happens when someone is just as good as something you at something, or even better, well its been soul sapping, even for something such as a love a small group leading had become a chore, because rather than being confidant in my abilities and gifting, I felt I had to compeat with Katie rather than work with her, and when it seemed that I had no way of 'beating her' there was no reason to compete anymore, no reason to use the gifting God gave to me, no reason for me to even be here. and so when i sat there getting in depressed how I'm no good at anything, Katie contacts me with a funny one liner and I give her a Dan Brown special of how I'm the worst people ever to existed, defiinatly not what she was expecting
However God has realy worked the back end of this week, I've been lucky enough to spend time talking and enjoying the company of some realy good friends.
First of all Jamie M who dispight the fact he was up at 7am the next morning for a meeting sat with me till about 1am chatting about my life up untill then, and for the first time in a long time I allowed someone to take an interest in who I am, rather putting up barriers by forcing someone to talk about them, or making shallow talk about what I'm up to (and trying to prove how useful I am) we talked a lot about my past, and it felt like I was opening a lot of doors that I'd forced to stay shut for a long time. After leaving jamie's it took me between an hour and a half and 2 hours to get from ashenhurst to marsh and I was crying most of the way home, because for the first time in a long time I'd allowed someone to get to me, and although it was one of the most 'painful' things I've been through in the last few months, it was also one of the most needed, and God taught me a lot of stuff over that time, although I was a experiences small group leader, a willing volunteer and insperation, that was just qualtites of who I was, and I'd let it define me rather than allowing my self to just be loved by people, I'd relised I was trying to prove to people it was worth loving me
I then had a great day meeting up with Katie, who when I'd orginaly broken down at her over FB, then had broken down to her, we had agreed to meet up and chat. However this is where God (and katie) surprised me. I was expecting to be allowed to take up an hour of her time, then excusees would be made and I'd spend another evening home alone, but instead spent the day hanging out with her, laughing, joking and enjoying some very good music, by Josh and Bob before sitting in a pub and just hanging out!
the following morning there was a student men's breakfast at community and it was great to spend time and hang out with some realy inspireing people (Bob, Matt H, Matt S and Mark) eating lots of pig and drinking lots of tea! Great morning all round!
then last night Jolita invited me round for tea and one of the cheesiest predictable christian films I've seen, which had us both in sticker at times (mostly at how 'black' the church was) and it was a just a realy good time of chilling out, letting my hair down (not that I have much of it) and allowing me to be me, not me the Councillor, or me the inspirational mad man, or anything else of me trying to prove myself to myself, to others or to God, but me being a son of God, his prized creation, a work of art, and someone who is loved and saved by grace, and not how useful I am to people
Friday, 19 August 2011
Faith to pray for a broken Tap?`
Afternoon all, hope your all well, and hopefully you havn't missed my blogs to much (being busy over the summer has ment I've not had to much time)
However an intresting incendent came up today while working in a local cafe I volenteer in, Do we have faith to pray for things that are small
anyway a bit of backstory
The cafe I work for is ran by a couple from my church here in Glossop, and have a great testermony of how God has worked in there lives. All the staff are volunteers(a variety of local people and people from the church) (even the couple only take what they need to live) and do a huge amount of work with the local community helping to run various activities from CV clinics and Football to helping people with addictions and things like that and considering how its the roughest part of the area, the effect the cafe has on the area is easly seen
anyway It was just coming up to the lunchtime service, I was washing up from the usual pots and pans that came from doing breakfasts when the pipe to the hot tap came lose sparying hot water everywhere and while the wife and the other volenteer tried to keep service going to customors, me and the husband tried to find the stop cock to try to turn off the water while having to 2 buckets collecting the water and then disposing of it down the drain (not the best for a shop on a water meter) while thankfully a customer who had just finnished his lunch went off to find us a plummer
anyway after 30-40 mins of bailing water and finding what seemed to be the stop cock, turning to no effect, the plummer arrived (though there was a intresting descusion where someone from the council came in and said, as it was internaly on the presmisise, although the building was council owned, they couldn't send in a council plummer tecnicaly, before one came in off the record) the plummer arrived and turned off the water, reconected the pipe in a matter of minnuites before leaving
Then in the aftermath cleaning up the large amounts of water on the floor (we had closed 10 mins in due to not being able to wash up) we worked out that dispight the situation, none of us had even thought to pray over the situation, as the wife said "we have faith for blind eyes to see, but not for God to stop water poaring from a pipe"
Is this something though that often occurs, we go to God for things we conssider to big for us to handle, healing and the like, but when something mundane happens, praying over the situation becomes something we think about in hindsight after having to close for the day, and mop up water and then wash everything up
just something to think about- next time something comes up, consider we have a heavenly Farther, who is willing to meet our needs both spiritual and mundane, but sometimes we only considered the spiritual 'worth' praying for, where as in mundane situations, we relay on early methods?
anyway just something to think about- I'll see you all back in huddersfield soon
on that bombshow, keep on rocking
Dan Brown
However an intresting incendent came up today while working in a local cafe I volenteer in, Do we have faith to pray for things that are small
anyway a bit of backstory
The cafe I work for is ran by a couple from my church here in Glossop, and have a great testermony of how God has worked in there lives. All the staff are volunteers(a variety of local people and people from the church) (even the couple only take what they need to live) and do a huge amount of work with the local community helping to run various activities from CV clinics and Football to helping people with addictions and things like that and considering how its the roughest part of the area, the effect the cafe has on the area is easly seen
anyway It was just coming up to the lunchtime service, I was washing up from the usual pots and pans that came from doing breakfasts when the pipe to the hot tap came lose sparying hot water everywhere and while the wife and the other volenteer tried to keep service going to customors, me and the husband tried to find the stop cock to try to turn off the water while having to 2 buckets collecting the water and then disposing of it down the drain (not the best for a shop on a water meter) while thankfully a customer who had just finnished his lunch went off to find us a plummer
anyway after 30-40 mins of bailing water and finding what seemed to be the stop cock, turning to no effect, the plummer arrived (though there was a intresting descusion where someone from the council came in and said, as it was internaly on the presmisise, although the building was council owned, they couldn't send in a council plummer tecnicaly, before one came in off the record) the plummer arrived and turned off the water, reconected the pipe in a matter of minnuites before leaving
Then in the aftermath cleaning up the large amounts of water on the floor (we had closed 10 mins in due to not being able to wash up) we worked out that dispight the situation, none of us had even thought to pray over the situation, as the wife said "we have faith for blind eyes to see, but not for God to stop water poaring from a pipe"
Is this something though that often occurs, we go to God for things we conssider to big for us to handle, healing and the like, but when something mundane happens, praying over the situation becomes something we think about in hindsight after having to close for the day, and mop up water and then wash everything up
just something to think about- next time something comes up, consider we have a heavenly Farther, who is willing to meet our needs both spiritual and mundane, but sometimes we only considered the spiritual 'worth' praying for, where as in mundane situations, we relay on early methods?
anyway just something to think about- I'll see you all back in huddersfield soon
on that bombshow, keep on rocking
Dan Brown
Tuesday, 14 June 2011
The danny-d-b Guide to...serving
sorry guys if your expecting something on prayer, due to a few words that have come at church/CU/other stuff I've desided to do the guide to serving.- so why would we give up our free time to serve people?
1. Jesus did it.Matthew 20:28-
"just as the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many."
Luke 22:27
"For who is greater, the one who is at the table or the one who serves? Is it not the one who is at the table? But I am among you as one who serves."
John 13:1-17
1 It was just before the Passover Festival. Jesus knew that the hour had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he loved them to the end.2 The evening meal was in progress, and the devil had already prompted Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, to betray Jesus. 3 Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; 4 so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. 5 After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him.6 He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, “Lord, are you going to wash my feet?”7 Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”8 “No,” said Peter, “you shall never wash my feet.”Jesus answered, “Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.”9 “Then, Lord,” Simon Peter replied, “not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!”10 Jesus answered, “Those who have had a bath need only to wash their feet; their whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you.” 11 For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean.12 When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. “Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them. 13 “You call me ‘Teacher’ and ‘Lord,’ and rightly so, for that is what I am. 14 Now that I, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another’s feet. 15 I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you. 16 Very truly I tell you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the one who sent him. 17 Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do them."
so its biblical to serve-points on serving
1. I've not got a title- I don't need to serve/I'm not allowed to serve/I've not got a position, there is no need serve.
Every title you need to serve has already been given to you- you don't need an additional title- titles given by men are not worth any where near as much as a single percentage as the title of 'son of God' - As much as the titles, your expected to serve - it is better to serve regardless of titles given by men.
As much as titles can be an encouragement to serve- they they can also put limits on what you can and can't do in some ways- for example a someone said to me once- that my role as a small group leader, is just to lead a bible study, and an someways they were both right and wrong. At minimum my role as small group leader means I lead bible studies- but in addition to that I 'serve' as an encouragement, as inspiration, as a 'counselor' and other pastoral jobs that I do. (note this is not me trying to be an big headed, but as an example)
takeing the CU as an example, as I know it the best- you could see it as people who do stuff are just committee/small group leaders- but there are other jobs that are outside committee/small groups that needs doing- from international work to evangelism to media, to doing words on a monday night to just looking after people with in the CU
2- motivated grace not anything else
as was the talk last week (motivated by grace- if you missed it or want speak to mike pounce he might have a recording) our reason for serving shouldn't be motivated by the fact we are wanting to please someone, or to get reward- but for the fact that your saved by grace and should be motivated that fact. The main point of the talk is that if your serving for reward, if you don't get a reward for when you serve, then your going to stop serving- which is why we should be motivated by things above, not things in the earth. yes getting someone rewarding you for your efforts, is nice, but shouldn't be expected, instead take your reward from the fact your doing something for either God's people (if there saved) or your witnessing to a potential christian
3- Serving is an act of worship
Something that was said at community on serving I've also found quite useful to hear, serving is both an act of witness and of worship- if worship is how God sees our actions, and witness is how the world sees our actions. therefore our outward actions of serving are a sign to non-Christians that we are in the world but not off the world. The people of the world generally only do things that they can get something out of, however if we do acts that mean we don't get something people will generally ask the question 'why is that person doing something that their not getting paid for or, not getting anything for, especially if the task your doing is something to blessing someone else and if the act is unexpected then there probably even more interested, and then gives the idea opportunity when they ask to explain that your showing love to them, as Jesus showed us
4- find out what your Gifts are
The best way to find out what your gifted in, is to just jump in and do it, yes don't expect it to be perfect the first time you do it, but there will be some area that you would be gifted in that you might not expect for expample- I've recently discovered a gift I have for un-jamming laminators, and yes it seems like a strange gift to have, but if I'd not had offered to try and fix it, then I would of never found out (to the point where the community laminater now has a sticky label on it with the instructions- if jammed ring my number!) . but weather or not it sounds silly or not the principle is the same, if you go round thinking "I've never done this before, then I'll be no good at it" then your never going to do anything, so go in with the attitude of "I've never done this before, but I'll give it a go, and the worst thing that will happen is I'm unable to help, the best thing is I'll develop a new skill. Don't also just get stuck in to a mind set of I'm only good at what my course makes me good at (me not braging again just using me as an example) yes I do food as a degree, and I actually don't get much chance to use my food knollage to much use at CU- but what I do get to use, is my pastoral skills, and other skills that I've picked up, from using the mac when doing words at CU (something I've never done before ever, but I'm glad I was able to, and hopefully I didn't do to bad a job and I'll get to do it again!) so don't worry about getting something wrong- be of the mind set that if you do it right you have not only helped someone out but your are aware of a new skill you have!
so in short serve someone to day, develop a new skill and get someone to ask the question off you "why are you doing something for nothing unlike the rest of the world?
and on that bomb show keep on rocking
Sunday, 29 May 2011
The danny-d-b Guide to... worship
yo people yet another 'Danny-d-b guide to .....' hopefully the last one was insightful and inspiring and now on to my next passion as a Christian- Worship.
Yes despite the fact I have no musical talent (Though someone did say I once sounded around 50% in tune, which is interesting) times of worship are some my Favorite times (must come second to a group of mates getting together for food, laughter and bible studies!), though I do have to sometime tell my self that worship isn't for me, its telling God he's awesome and amazing and............ (you get the idea I'm not noting down all the words that could be associated with God, I think the internet might die if that happened)
so anyway on with the Guide
1. Don't be scared to look for others for inspiration
One of the biggest encouragement to me was something Aaron said to me once after he had lead worship, He said something along the lines of "when leading worship there are 3-4 people I pick out to check that I'm leading o.k., for example Johnny (bowly), Sam (sharp), but now you have added your self to the list"- yes the CU president looking to me for inspiration, which was scary but also good, so don't be scared to look at others to inspire you, even my self I've got people (for anyone who would like to know, the most common ones I pick up on are Jamie M, Bex W,Joe B, Mark D (when he is arround!) and halyes but there are others) I like to know where they are when worship is on, so if I'm needing a bit of a boost. so don't be scared to either look over to them or just try and pick out there voices and just go with them
2. Don't be intimidated by others
sometimes we can put ourselves thinking "I'm no good at singing, I can do this, I'll just stand here and let the musoes (spelling?) do it" If God didn't want you to sing, he wouldn't of given you a voice, in my opinion, and at the end of the day, its not how it sounds thats important but the heart behind it, and God's got a great 'auto tuner' anyway so it doesn't matter. if it helps close your eyes and block out everyone but you and God (I know that sometimes it good to pick up others and be inspired by them, and sometime (and for some people) its better to block them all out) so give everything you have to offer to God- this doesn't mean you have to shout your head off and try to defen everyone else (maybe I should tell my self that) but just try to give everything that you have to God
3. Worship isn't just singing- its part of everyday life
I've seen so many Christians sing cos they think thats worship and then do nothing else, even worship in the sence of getting together and singing songs is more than singing songs, its about coming to God and laying everything you have in front of him and saying (to quote one of my favorite worship songs)
So worship is so much more than singing- everything we do could taken as an act of worship, if we let it glorify God (so things that don't glorify God, isn't worship- so no claiming watching TV is worship!) But if you can paint, or draw, or sew (and something else crafty) use the skills to glorify God, if you can cook, then make a meal, invite everyone round for said meal, then afterwards break in to singing or a bible study or something like that. If you can write poetry or something like that, then write poetry, God has given you some way to praise him, cos that is out purpose in life, to Glorify him.
but what happens if you think your not creative at all (I used to think that my self, but your made in the image of a creative job, everyone has some creativity, you just need more inspiring than others) then glorify God in other ways be that person to who gets stuck in and helps with stuff. I've developed a bit of a 'catchphrase' "I'm here to help" and then someone replied to me "no your here to glorify God", so I went away and thought about it, and wondered "Why can't helping other be glorifying God" and it my view it can be, Something as simple as stacking or unstacking chairs can be done to glorify God, if its done with the right heart. At the end of the day Jesus came to serve not to be served, and we should aspire to be like Jesus, so we should be ready to serve (more on that a future blog) so don't be scared to 'worship' in everyday life, go that extra mile for someone, smile at that person who looks like there having a long day, hold open the door for that person with there handful, ask the person serving you in the shop how's there day going (though maybe not if there are 10 people waiting) and if they ask why, say your making there life better and glorifying God
as every if there are questions comments or anything else please do let me know- its great to here if the blog is being usefull- if its not then I'll stop but if it is, be an encouragment to me please and tell me, so I can be encouraged and in turn encourage others back
and on that bomb show, keep on rocking!
Yes despite the fact I have no musical talent (Though someone did say I once sounded around 50% in tune, which is interesting) times of worship are some my Favorite times (must come second to a group of mates getting together for food, laughter and bible studies!), though I do have to sometime tell my self that worship isn't for me, its telling God he's awesome and amazing and............ (you get the idea I'm not noting down all the words that could be associated with God, I think the internet might die if that happened)
so anyway on with the Guide
1. Don't be scared to look for others for inspiration
One of the biggest encouragement to me was something Aaron said to me once after he had lead worship, He said something along the lines of "when leading worship there are 3-4 people I pick out to check that I'm leading o.k., for example Johnny (bowly), Sam (sharp), but now you have added your self to the list"- yes the CU president looking to me for inspiration, which was scary but also good, so don't be scared to look at others to inspire you, even my self I've got people (for anyone who would like to know, the most common ones I pick up on are Jamie M, Bex W,Joe B, Mark D (when he is arround!) and halyes but there are others) I like to know where they are when worship is on, so if I'm needing a bit of a boost. so don't be scared to either look over to them or just try and pick out there voices and just go with them
2. Don't be intimidated by others
sometimes we can put ourselves thinking "I'm no good at singing, I can do this, I'll just stand here and let the musoes (spelling?) do it" If God didn't want you to sing, he wouldn't of given you a voice, in my opinion, and at the end of the day, its not how it sounds thats important but the heart behind it, and God's got a great 'auto tuner' anyway so it doesn't matter. if it helps close your eyes and block out everyone but you and God (I know that sometimes it good to pick up others and be inspired by them, and sometime (and for some people) its better to block them all out) so give everything you have to offer to God- this doesn't mean you have to shout your head off and try to defen everyone else (maybe I should tell my self that) but just try to give everything that you have to God
3. Worship isn't just singing- its part of everyday life
I've seen so many Christians sing cos they think thats worship and then do nothing else, even worship in the sence of getting together and singing songs is more than singing songs, its about coming to God and laying everything you have in front of him and saying (to quote one of my favorite worship songs)
"And take my life, let it be everything, all of meThats what worship is, giving everything you have and saying to God "this is what you have given me, how can I glorify you through it"
Here I am, use me for Your glory
In everything I say and do, let my life honor You
Here I am living for Your glory"
So worship is so much more than singing- everything we do could taken as an act of worship, if we let it glorify God (so things that don't glorify God, isn't worship- so no claiming watching TV is worship!) But if you can paint, or draw, or sew (and something else crafty) use the skills to glorify God, if you can cook, then make a meal, invite everyone round for said meal, then afterwards break in to singing or a bible study or something like that. If you can write poetry or something like that, then write poetry, God has given you some way to praise him, cos that is out purpose in life, to Glorify him.
but what happens if you think your not creative at all (I used to think that my self, but your made in the image of a creative job, everyone has some creativity, you just need more inspiring than others) then glorify God in other ways be that person to who gets stuck in and helps with stuff. I've developed a bit of a 'catchphrase' "I'm here to help" and then someone replied to me "no your here to glorify God", so I went away and thought about it, and wondered "Why can't helping other be glorifying God" and it my view it can be, Something as simple as stacking or unstacking chairs can be done to glorify God, if its done with the right heart. At the end of the day Jesus came to serve not to be served, and we should aspire to be like Jesus, so we should be ready to serve (more on that a future blog) so don't be scared to 'worship' in everyday life, go that extra mile for someone, smile at that person who looks like there having a long day, hold open the door for that person with there handful, ask the person serving you in the shop how's there day going (though maybe not if there are 10 people waiting) and if they ask why, say your making there life better and glorifying God
as every if there are questions comments or anything else please do let me know- its great to here if the blog is being usefull- if its not then I'll stop but if it is, be an encouragment to me please and tell me, so I can be encouraged and in turn encourage others back
and on that bomb show, keep on rocking!
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